It’s time for SCHOOL! That moment we are all so NOT ready for. I dropped my son off at preschool today and it was such a heartbreaking moment, but it was also an amazing moment as well. Our son has gotten so big and was so excited to start his first day of school. The teacher asked me to stay a little bit, to see how he would transition into the classroom, and he asked me to leave! Seriously!? I about cried right there and then because of that. He was playing and made a new friend as soon as he walked in the door.
He was ready to go and this mom wasn’t. I walked out of the door with tears in my eyes. I could barely make it to my car before te first tear started to shed. I never imagined it being this hard to send our children off to school. I thought it would be easy because now I get a break and will be able to get more done. NOPE! I was so wrong! It was one of the hardest things I have had to do because it means he is getting independent and won’t need me much longer.
We all want our kids to get independent and learn on their own, but we are never prepared for it to happen. Especially when it’s happening at such a young age. Our kids grow up so fast and sometimes we are so wrapped up in what needs to be done that we miss these things. I always see my son as the shy child he was a year ago and today he proved me wrong. There was a child who came up to him while he was playing and they instantly started to play together. This is something I, as a parent, was worried about. I didn’t think he would make a friend that quickly because of his shyness.
It’s that time for our children to learn for themselves and to grow up, but are we really prepared. Yes we go school shopping and help them learn at home, but we are never emotionally prepared for our children to leave us. Today I realized why my mom cried when we went to school, its because she loved us. She wasn’t ready for her babies to go off and without her. I now see this and experienced this priceless moment for myself today.
So I am in this IT class, and it is hard for me. I won’t lie when I say that I struggle a lot at it mainly because I have no idea what i am doing. I can atch numerous videos on it and still never understand exactly what I am doing. I have a relatively good grade in the class though, only because I follow his rubric to a T and never miss a thing on it. I’m not necessarily learning anything from the class, but I am doing great!
I just had a HUGE power point due and I have been stressing over my grade for a week now. Well guess what? I got a 16/16! I’ve never been more excited until now. I was literally screaming I was so happy. Don, my husband, didn’t know what to think until I told him why I was so happy. This was a big deal for me, because I worked really hard for a week straight on this. I exceeded everything that he required and to be completely honest, I cant tell you a thing about it!
It is hard to juggle my schoolwork with everything, but it will be all worth it in the end. I am going to school for my Associates in health Administration and also a certificate for medical coding and billing. I am excited to start my career when the kids go to school. Don wants me to be a stay at home mom until all the children are in school full-time, that way we don’t have to worry about them in someone else’s care.
Especially now a days. There have been so many bad things happening in daycare’s and by babysitters that I cant trust anyone with my children. Well my mom I can trust. She just spoils the kids rotten. They love their Nonna very much. If she was a stay at home grandma then the children would definitely be in her care rather than anyone else’s, but no she has to have a job! haha
Our oldest daughter, Makayla, absolutely loves the fact that I go to school. Mainly because I tell her that if she doesn’t bother mama when doing her schoolwork that my very first paycheck we are going out shopping! She hasn’t let that one live down, not even a little. The two younger ones, Liam and Addison, still don quite understand what I am doing; other than the fact I am on the computer. I hope to inspire them one day that its never too late to go back to school. As long as you have the right mind set, everything is possible. No matter what it is, and I hope when they are older that they can look back at these moments and remember that.