It’s a Bittersweet Moment

It’s time for SCHOOL! That moment we are all so NOT ready for. I dropped my son off at preschool today and it was such a heartbreaking moment, but it was also an amazing moment as well. Our son has gotten so big and was so excited to start his first day of school. The teacher asked me to stay a little bit, to see how he would transition into the classroom, and he asked me to leave! Seriously!? I about cried right there and then because of that. He was playing and made a new friend as soon as he walked in the door.

He was ready to go and this mom wasn’t. I walked out of the door with tears in my eyes. I could barely make it to my car before te first tear started to shed. I never imagined it being this hard to send our children off to school. I thought it would be easy because now I get a break and will be able to get more done. NOPE! I was so wrong! It was one of the hardest things I have had to do because it means he is getting independent and won’t need me much longer.

We all want our kids to get independent and learn on their own, but we are never prepared for it to happen. Especially when it’s happening at such a young age. Our kids grow up so fast and sometimes we are so wrapped up in what needs to be done that we miss these things. I always see my son as the shy child he was a year ago and today he proved me wrong. There was a child who came up to him while he was playing and they instantly started to play together. This is something I, as a parent, was worried about. I didn’t think he would make a friend that quickly because of his shyness.

It’s that time for our children to learn for themselves and to grow up, but are we really prepared. Yes we go school shopping and help them learn at home, but we are never emotionally prepared for our children to leave us. Today I realized why my mom cried when we went to school, its because she loved us. She wasn’t ready for her babies to go off and without her. I now see this and experienced this priceless moment for myself today.

Ginger Mama

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